Sushmita Sen, Vikram Bhatt and Ameesha Patel
Sushmita Sen, Vikram Bhatt and Ameesha PatelVarinder Chawla

Vikram Bhatt has had a controversial life for his multiple affairs, and eventual divorce with wife Aditi. The film-maker had affairs with Sushmita Sen and also Ameesha Patel. Talking about his relationship with Sushmita that had caused him divorce, Vikram now said that there was a time he wanted to commit suicide.

Vikram said that after his broken marriage, he wanted to kill himself by jumping from the balcony of his house.

"That was not because of Sushmita. That was because of what I had done to my life. I had gotten divorced, my film Ghulam was yet to be released, I was only Sushmita Sen's boyfriend, I was depressed, I missed my daughter like crazy. I had just made a mess of my life. I don't think any one relationship in my life had wrecked me. I think I am a collection of wrecks," Vikram told Hindustan Times.

The film-maker also said that cheating on his wife for Sushmita made him feel regretful. "I regret hurting my wife and my child and abandoning them. I regret the pain I caused them. I always believe that when you are not courageous, you become cunning. I did not have the courage to tell Aditi how I felt. And it was all happening together, it was a big mess," he said.

However, Vikram added that he never intended to marry Sushmita or Ameesha. "No, I didn't want to marry either of them. And it's not like there is any bitterness. There is too much water under the bridge now," he added.